Friday, March 19, 2010
First smack in the face
The very first thing I am learning in this never-ending process of discovery is that I am my children's main example of what kind of person to be. When I am grumpy and irritable everyday, they learn to be that way too. When I spend all my time picking up the house, they learn that a "perfect" house is more important to me than spending quality time with them. When I try to make everything perfect for them, they learn that nothing will ever go wrong in their lives, and if it does, I will be expected to fix it. When I don't take to take care of themselves. As I am learning this, it is hard to change my thought patterns. But I want them to learn that mommy is not perfect. But it's okay and I love myself just the way I am. Well, trying to for right now anyway.
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A magnet on my fridge given to me by my wise little sister just when I needed it the most...."finish each day and be done with it. you have done what you could. some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. tomorrow is a new day. you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." -emerson
ReplyDeleteKrista, Once we find the courage to share our story, it's amazing how many others are going through the same, or similar, things. Most of us don't talk about it because of the shame we feel. I know I couldn't understand why I was depressed. I had a great life. But I felt so sad and unhappy and guilty that I felt that way. When I finally sought help and started talking about my issues, almost everyone I talked to could relate. Good for you for finding your voice. I hope this blog helps and you find the happiness you so deserve. Love, Jennifer
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